Me Thinking.

So I've been thinking (DUH!) about crush...like...love! It's ridiculous when you come down to it, actually. Not so much for everyone, but for me in general. Ridiculous I say because initially when you like someone, you have absolutely no clue whether or not that person likes you back (unless you're one in a million, and it happens to you!). It didn't happen for my friend and it so never happens for me!
Despite the tonnes of crappy, sappy and even quite sordid articles you read about 'How to know if a guy/girl likes you', etc. you never really know till you do. And in your uncertain period, it's usual for someone else to make a move, which frustrates the hell out of you. On the other hand, while your efforts (or the a lack thereof) fails to impress the oh-so-beautiful being you like, it happens to charm a complete opposite, who you'd rather maintained his/her distance. And that particular someone becomes insistent to the point of irritation - that irritation in turn, is carried forward and bugs the person you do like... vicious cycle indeed.
And whats with being shy? Come on people. Open up a little bit, tell us how you really feel. I mean, how do we take it forward if the both of us are hesitant?
*sigh* I've given up, every person I've ever like, either doesn't like me or thinks of me just as a friend or is more enamored by the trillions of other more beautiful people out there, who get the picture and do something about it.
In my case I don't know if this person likes me at all, but I do kind of like the person. The problem is, after a certain point, it all fizzles out for me. I find one thing in that person that bothers me beyond reason and that becomes the most prominent feature for that person. Why? How? I have no clue. It has always happened.
So I spend my time, trying to figure out whether or not this person likes me, and on the side there's always a dash of magic 8 ball, crude tarot readings and other stupid stuff that make you feel good!
me thinking, me not lucky in love (never having been in love of course changes that a bit, but you know what I mean)...

signing off...
me!