So I've been thinking (DUH!) about crush...like...love! It's ridiculous when you come down to it, actually. Not so much for everyone, but for me in general. Ridiculous I say because initially when you like someone, you have absolutely no clue whether or not that person likes you back (unless you're one in a million, and it happens to you!). It didn't happen for my friend and it so never happens for me!
Despite the tonnes of crappy, sappy and even quite sordid articles you read about 'How to know if a guy/girl likes you', etc. you never really know till you do. And in your uncertain period, it's usual for someone else to make a move, which frustrates the hell out of you. On the other hand, while your efforts (or the a lack thereof) fails to impress the oh-so-beautiful being you like, it happens to charm a complete opposite, who you'd rather maintained his/her distance. And that particular someone becomes insistent to the point of irritation - that irritation in turn, is carried forward and bugs the person you do like... vicious cycle indeed.
And whats with being shy? Come on people. Open up a little bit, tell us how you really feel. I mean, how do we take it forward if the both of us are hesitant?
*sigh* I've given up, every person I've ever like, either doesn't like me or thinks of me just as a friend or is more enamored by the trillions of other more beautiful people out there, who get the picture and do something about it.
In my case I don't know if this person likes me at all, but I do kind of like the person. The problem is, after a certain point, it all fizzles out for me. I find one thing in that person that bothers me beyond reason and that becomes the most prominent feature for that person. Why? How? I have no clue. It has always happened.
So I spend my time, trying to figure out whether or not this person likes me, and on the side there's always a dash of magic 8 ball, crude tarot readings and other stupid stuff that make you feel good!
me thinking, me not lucky in love (never having been in love of course changes that a bit, but you know what I mean)...
signing off...
me!
Thursday, 13 October 2011
Saturday, 8 October 2011
Thought in process
Ok, So I went out house hunting today, and let me tell you straight off - it was disastrous! D.I.S.A.S.T.R.O.U.S.!!! Did I stress enough on that word??
Whats with peer pressure? It's always looming out there in a disguise! Yes, so I'm looking for a flat with my pal and not going too good, cos clearly my friend has no clue about pricing and travel costs, but who gives a shit right? Anyway, hoping to find something decent enough soon.
Ever felt that there are way too many people in this world to please? And boy, do I feel the consistent need to make sure everyone is happy! What's up with that? I just feel like this huge spineless Jelly-fish, who is incapable of one moronic thought of his/her own! Blah. Anyway, so in this entire process of pleasing everyone else, I find, more often than not, that I get lost in between. Haven't seen 'Lost In Translation', but seriously, that is so me!
And right now, do you really want to know whats going through my head right now? How completely insignificant my thoughts can be sometime... How will it affect the millions of others out there? No clue, but hopefully, in that million there maybe just one quirk who will say 'Hey, that's exactly what went on in my lucid head today!' :D
Steve Jobs passed away, Bless his soul.
Which leads me to say, Life - it's completely a THOUGHT IN PROCESS
enough for now,
me!
Whats with peer pressure? It's always looming out there in a disguise! Yes, so I'm looking for a flat with my pal and not going too good, cos clearly my friend has no clue about pricing and travel costs, but who gives a shit right? Anyway, hoping to find something decent enough soon.
Ever felt that there are way too many people in this world to please? And boy, do I feel the consistent need to make sure everyone is happy! What's up with that? I just feel like this huge spineless Jelly-fish, who is incapable of one moronic thought of his/her own! Blah. Anyway, so in this entire process of pleasing everyone else, I find, more often than not, that I get lost in between. Haven't seen 'Lost In Translation', but seriously, that is so me!
And right now, do you really want to know whats going through my head right now? How completely insignificant my thoughts can be sometime... How will it affect the millions of others out there? No clue, but hopefully, in that million there maybe just one quirk who will say 'Hey, that's exactly what went on in my lucid head today!' :D
Steve Jobs passed away, Bless his soul.
Which leads me to say, Life - it's completely a THOUGHT IN PROCESS
enough for now,
me!
Friday, 7 October 2011
Why I think the the things I think...
Why do I think?
I don't really know. It's just that I do have a lot of time to think! After all, my brain spends most of its time processing unnecessary, and sometimes even the necessary, bits of life that float by me... and more often than not, I don't really have anywhere to stuff my thoughts (just so you know, my cupboards pretty messy anyway!) So here I am at 1am in the morning, trying to put into words as to why exactly I felt the urge to start a blog at this godforsaken hour.
I just want to make it clear that posts here are entirely in the intent they were intended in!! They're my thoughts, I have a right, c'mon!
Ok, first thoughts, I cant sleep!! any remedies out there? Well, I actually do know one, watching movies and listening to music lulls me off to sleep. Maybe its something got to do with the incessant voices and sounds that tells my brain to just tune out and take a break. Didn't do me much good tonight though, because clearly I'm still up. I've always been fascinated by the brain; remember reading an edition of the National Geographic mag once; it was basically all about the brain - how it functions, responds, assimilates and lives. It's probably the most beautiful part of a human being, if not beautiful then very fascinating to say the least. And then there's Mojo-jojo; for those who remain ignorant, he's the not-so-evil-monkey from powerpuff girls... that creature just got popped up in my head. See, that's what I mean. How weird is that? How does my brain move so quickly from one thought to something so completely different? I don't have a clue... that's exactly why I continue thinking about things...
me.
I don't really know. It's just that I do have a lot of time to think! After all, my brain spends most of its time processing unnecessary, and sometimes even the necessary, bits of life that float by me... and more often than not, I don't really have anywhere to stuff my thoughts (just so you know, my cupboards pretty messy anyway!) So here I am at 1am in the morning, trying to put into words as to why exactly I felt the urge to start a blog at this godforsaken hour.
I just want to make it clear that posts here are entirely in the intent they were intended in!! They're my thoughts, I have a right, c'mon!
Ok, first thoughts, I cant sleep!! any remedies out there? Well, I actually do know one, watching movies and listening to music lulls me off to sleep. Maybe its something got to do with the incessant voices and sounds that tells my brain to just tune out and take a break. Didn't do me much good tonight though, because clearly I'm still up. I've always been fascinated by the brain; remember reading an edition of the National Geographic mag once; it was basically all about the brain - how it functions, responds, assimilates and lives. It's probably the most beautiful part of a human being, if not beautiful then very fascinating to say the least. And then there's Mojo-jojo; for those who remain ignorant, he's the not-so-evil-monkey from powerpuff girls... that creature just got popped up in my head. See, that's what I mean. How weird is that? How does my brain move so quickly from one thought to something so completely different? I don't have a clue... that's exactly why I continue thinking about things...
me.
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